We have more than twenty chickens in our backyard. Our compound is huge and we allot almost a third of it for the chickens. We have a net fence tied from our east side of the compound to the west, and the covered part was where all the chickens are left to roam, lay eggs, and eat. My father is never into cockfights and the chickens are actually there for the family’s entertainment—or something else to keep us busy.
The hens do not lay eggs regularly, and sometimes they get rotten before they even hatch because the hens are too lazy to even sit on them every day. We cannot sell their eggs, even the good ones, because they are never good enough as the eggs sold in the market place. The eggs are either allowed to hatch to new chicks or, sometimes when we forget to include eggs on the grocery list, our chickens’ eggs end up in the frying pan or in the refrigerator egg compartment.
Recently, the Securities and Exchange Commission (SEC) has revoked the registration of Rappler, a media outlet that dares speak against the atrocities of the Duterte regime. In the guise of citing the “unconstitutionality” of Rappler’s issuance of Philippine Depositary Receipts (PDRs)—which are legal financial instruments likewise issued by other media companies—fascist enablers seek to silence those who criticize Duterte and his policies, further upholding political hegemony.
Jade Mark Capiñanes’ essay recently won third prize in the Essay in English of the 2017 Carlos Palanca Memorial Awards for Literature. He grew up in Panacan, Davao City, but now stays in Fatima, General Santos City. He was a fellow for creative nonfiction at the Davao Writers Workshop in 2016 and the UST National Writers Workshop in 2017.
Wait for me, my Darling. Wait for me
the way I wait for your future father.
Wait for me the way seeds wait
for rain and bulbs wait for spring,
that moment when a switch
is flipped on and the world is brighter,
in Technicolor, with birdsong in the trees.
Be patient the way time has taught me
to be patient— with myself, with my hopes,
with the sperm donor who shall help me
create you. Sit in my subconscious
and fall in line with the other dreams
at the back of my mind as they join
the queue of things-I-have-yet-to-do.
Arian Tejano earned her bachelor’s degree in Creative Writing from the University of the Philippines-Mindanao. She was also a fellow at the Davao Writers Workshop. A poet and a photographer, she balances her time between Tandag, Surigao del Sur and Dumaguete, and occasionally travels around Asia for the love and self-exploration. In 2015, her poem When A Lady Boy Loves A Foreign Man won first prize at “The Other Side” poetry contest of Hong Kong-based Cha: An Asian Literary Journal. She is a marketing analyst by profession.